September start counts

Obviously these aren’t all the projects in the works, but these are the start counts I’m tracking this month. We’ll see what has the biggest add.

August it was When All’s Said and Done, the first big Lost Angels book (and direct sequel to What Angels Fear).

We’re in about the sixth or seventh draft of that monster and I think I finally have a feel for how it needs to be shaped.

It’s definitely going to lay groundwork for Pawns, which is a big crossover piece that’s going to stand as sequel to both WASAD and Lost and Found, really tying Lost Angels and UNSETIC Files together more tightly than anyone quite realizes yet.

I may not be fast but I do have a plan for some things. I promise.

Musings on current

I can always tell that I’m completely over summer and longing for autumn because I tend to end up consuming (via television/streaming, audiobooks, and podcasts) random paranormal and spooky stuff at higher levels than normal. It’s no secret that to a very great extent that the fall is really my favorite season, followed by winter. Spring and summer I appreciate for the storms and sometimes the blue sky sunshine and various other things but not so much the heat and humidity–I’m just not built for that.

Times are weird right now and feel as if they’re going to continue to get weirder. I’m not sure what’s triggering that feeling, but something is certainly driving it. Either I’ll figure it out or I wont, just like some character in a novel or a game or another media. Maybe it’s just not important to know, but to feel and acknowledge.

There is a restlessness right now coupled with an exhaustion and a readiness for whatever’s shifting to just well on and do it so we can brace ourselves for what’s coming next. Another thing I’m not sure about, one way or another, but there it is.

Creatively and intellectually, I’m considering what to do going forward. There’s a little bit of a desire to possibly put together some brief research essays for Patreon and this site and see what happens. Professionally, I’m starting to take a look at things like knowledge management and content management, above and beyond what I already do in my day to day (let’s just say even though Tech Writer is my title, I’m doing a lot that is not that). In some ways, I miss the research and the digging and the piecing of things together, so maybe that could be coming in the future. I doubt there will be a consistent theme to any of it because part of my academic problem has been that I am, in fact, interested in far too many things to focus on one thing forever. Specialization is a beast but I have a very bad (good?) habit of drilling down on whatever interests me in the moment, which has rendered me a bizarre kind of generalist in some ways.

It’s an interesting idea, anyway. Something I need to think about–something I need to give myself permission to think about, to possibly try, and to accept that I’ll either love it or hate it and either is fine. Failure is fine. Success is fine. The joy is what I make of it.

We’ll see.

More boards….

Decided I needed more board space for the UNSETIC/Lost Angels plots and notes, so I picked up another couple boards with a coupon. They came this morning and now they’re on the wall. Time to rearrange the note cards and figure out what level of the boards the cats will bother (or will bother the cats).

Awakenings Book 8 – Chapter 28 (parts 1 and 2)

Thordin’s gaze strayed toward the windows as lightning lit the world outside a pair of heartbeats before thunder boomed. A gust of wind lashed rain against the far side of the cottage Matt and Hecate shared with their younger children.

“It’s growing,” he whispered, eyes growing unfocused for a moment as he cast his senses into the storm, fingers bunching in the fabric of his pants for a few seconds.

Sif still hadn’t joined them. Either her conversion with Neve was taking longer than anticipated, or she’d stayed with the other woman a bit longer to wait for a break in the storm.

A break didn’t seem forthcoming anytime soon, as far as Matt could tell, but that wasn’t exactly his wheelhouse, either. He leaned forward to rest his elbows against his knees, cradling the mug of tea Hecate handed him between his palms. “What does it mean?”

“Not sure yet.” Thordin’s brow furrowed for a few seconds as he squinted, his gaze still focused on something beyond their sight. “Do you want me to…?”

Matt glanced at Hecate, who winced, catching the inside of her lower lip between her teeth. The worry in her eyes, he knew, mirrored what was in his own. He exhaled slowly. “At what cost?”

“Shouldn’t be one,” Thordin murmured. “Maybe an extra hour of sleep tonight or tomorrow morning. Not unless I have to do anything more than just look.” He blinked once, then again, and suddenly he was fully there, turning a wry smile toward his worried friends. “Won’t know if it’s more than that unless I take the look.”

“Do you think it’s worth it?” Hecate asked as she slowly sat down beside Matt. “The risk that you’ll have to act?”

“Weighed against how quickly this is growing? I’m starting to think so.” The wry smile faded, his expression going slack for a few seconds. “It could be completely natural—it could be nothing to worry about.”

“Or it could be something subtle?” Hecate asked quietly. “A nudge, a tug, someone feeding it and guiding it with a light hand?”

The wry smile returned and Thordin nodded slowly. “It’s nice to know someone listens when I ramble on about it.”

“It’s been a long time since something like that happened,” Matt said, looking away from Thordin and toward the window. He gathered breath to continue, only for Thordin to say what he was already thinking.

“But with recent events, we can’t rule it out. Especially with the report from the Hunt, what happened to our guests, and the attack on Lin. We don’t even know who’s controlling them these days.”

“We don’t,” Matt agreed. “It’s been a long time since it mattered.”

“But it matters now,” Hecate said, setting her mug on the low table that perched in front of the couch where she and Matt had settled. For a few seconds, she stared at the inlay of the wood, the delicate carving. It had been an anniversary gift from Thom so many years ago. “If the peace is truly broken, then someone is coming. Perhaps all of them will be coming—and more. The old threats. New. Who knows what anyone’s learned about us and this place in eighteen years—and other places like this.” Her gaze flicked toward Matt for a second, then to Thordin. “It’s your choice, Thordin. Do what you think is best.”

Matt nodded, reaching to the side to capture her fingers in his, squeezing gently. “She’s right. And we’re with you on it. Whatever you decide.”

Thordin nodded, standing slowly. He set his mug on the table before he crossed toward the window, gaze already growing unfocused again. “If you see frost on my fingers—”

“We’ll pull you back,” Matt said. “No one wants you lost out there, Thordin.”

The ghost of a smile curved his lips and he nodded before he turned back to the window. He leaned against the sill, peering out through the glass at the raging storm. Then his eyes grew unfocused again as his friends watched, his senses thrown out and up into the storm.

Hecate’s fingers tightened around Matt’s. He squeezed back, perhaps harder than he intended to, gentling as he realized his knuckles had gone white.

“Are you afraid?” she asked in a bare whisper.

“Yes,” Matt whispered back.

“Me too.”

That fear felt different this time somehow—a surprise. Matt had thought after so much time, after so many threats faced and handled, that he’d learned every kind of fear that he could feel. Yet somehow, this felt different. There had been other times when the stakes felt much higher than they did now, but this felt like that and more.

But why?

Hecate’s shoulder leaned into his as his fingers flexed around hers again. He exhaled slowly, gaze fixed on Thordin—on his friend’s face, then his hands. If there was frost, he’d reached too far, was reaching too far, and there would be a threat of losing him to the storm.

It had come close to happening before and was an experience none of them were keen to repeat.

“What if he doesn’t come back?” Matt whispered, giving voice to the words that had suddenly bubbled up from that dark well of fear.

“He will,” Hecate said, and the certainty in her voice was enough to silence that fear, at least this time. “If there’s one thing that holds true about him, he’ll let you pull him back. He learned that lesson and has remembered it well.”

Matt didn’t ask. He thought he knew what she was talking about, but he didn’t want to hear the confirmation. He knew the old story—knew the truth of the old story. If that was what she was referencing, it made sense. Given everything he knew about his friend, it made sense.

And if it wasn’t that, if it was about a battle on the ice in his lifetime, well—then it made even more sense.

There was no sign of frost on Thordin’s fingertips, though, even as the air around him seemed to crackle gently. Matt held his breath. The static electricity was nothing new, but it suggested exactly how powerful the storm might be, if it was gathering around Thordin even standing there, leaned against the windowsill.

Next to him, Hecate swallowed.

“Big,” she whispered. “Very big.”

“And powerful,” Matt whispered back, gaze fixed on Thordin’s hands.

“This may be more than we bargained for.” Her fingers flexed. “Maybe we shouldn’t have—”

Matt shook his head, silent, still watching.

No frost.

The air crackled. Thunder boomed nearby, setting their cups rattling. Rain lashed at the windows, driven by a wind that was beginning to pick up.

If it was a normal storm, it was going to be one of the worst they’d faced all summer.

A glimmer caught his eye. Rime started to gather along Thordin’s fingernails. Matt was out of his seat in a second, crossing the room, his own magic a simmer beneath his skin—already reaching. “Thordin—”

His friend gasped, reeling backward, stumbling back into Matt’s startled arms. For a few seconds, Thordin’s eyes rolled wildly, blindly, as if seeking both himself and who was with him, his hands scrabbling for purchase on Matt’s arms.

“I—I was deep and high,” Thordin gasped. “I could feel something. It’s not—something’s feeding it. Someone. Something. I couldn’t tell what. It’s too far. This storm is huge and it’s growing. It hasn’t stopped growing and something is feeding it.”

Hecate was at their side, then, helping Thordin straighten and steady even as the taller man leaned on Matt. “But you couldn’t tell what or who?”

“No,” he breathed, reaching to scrub at his eyes. “No, it was too far away. It could be—it could be anyone. Known or unknown.”

“Or anything,” Matt murmured.

Thordin met his gaze and nodded slowly. “Aye. Anything.”

The three looked at each other for a few seconds before Hecate shook her head. “Come on. Sit down. You said it was far.”

Thordin nodded again, fumbling into the chair they led him to. “Yeah. Miles and miles. West, I think, and south. Definitely south.”

Hecate took a breath, looking at Matt, then Thordin, then back to Matt again. “It might not be directed at us.”

“It might not be,” Matt said. “But we can’t pretend that it’s not, can we?”

“No,” Thordin said. “We can’t and we shouldn’t. But whoever it is—they’re strong and they’re trying to keep what they can do hidden. What they’re doing is subtle. They might not know how much they can do.”

“Or they know exactly how much they can do,” Hecate said, sinking slowly back into her seat. “And they’re being careful.”

Thordin nodded. “I couldn’t tell. Not without—not without risking too much.”

“It’s all right,” Matt murmured. “If they’re far, we still have time.”

“But how much?” Thordin asked. “Assuming that this is something targeted and aimed here.”

“I don’t know,” Matt said. “None of us can, yet. Sounds like we’re going to have to be careful with this, though.”

“And batten down the hatches,” Hecate said, her gaze on the window and the wind-lashed rain. “This is barely the beginning, isn’t it? Tip of the iceberg.”

Swallowing hard, Thordin reached for his abandoned mug. “Yeah. The worst is still coming. Still out over the lake.”

“Then we have time,” Hecate said.

“Time,” Matt echoed. He headed for where his old raincoat, patched in places, showing its age, hung by the front door. “Going to go check in on the Hunt and tell them to button up. And the sentries. You two stay here—I’ll be back.”

“Matt.”

He paused at her voice, turning even as he shrugged into the coat. “I’ll be careful.”

“Very careful,” Hecate said, her gaze direct. “Be very, very careful.”

The words balanced on the very tip of his tongue, but he didn’t ask the question. He just nodded. “I will.”

He pulled up his hood and stepped out into the storm.

Some more Awakenings Book 8

For a second, he thought his heart might stop.

The Wild Hunt.

They had been in those stories that Aoife O’Credne told all those years ago when he was still a boy, on those dark and fire-lit nights and the long winter days when he and his sister could do little but tuck in and listen. There had been thousands of them, drawn from the fabric of centuries of life and even more of legends and tales she’d heard secondhand, passed along. They were the stories that Grey Miller had memorized, had written down, so that he could pass them along to his son after Aoife left. He didn’t think that Grey had forgotten a single one, either.

Like he knew. Like he knew she was never going to stay.

It was one thing to go off chasing stories and legends because David had seen something. But now, sitting here, confronted with the Wild Hunt, all the moisture from his mouth dried up and something inside of him coiled up, shrank back—a primal fear, a soul-deep warning.

“I think he’s heard of us,” Miriam quipped. “Look at his face.”

“Don’t be that way, Miriam,” Bastien said, his mirth fading. “He looks fit to run back out into that storm and I’m the first to tell you, boy, that’d be ill-advised.”

“I take it you’ve heard the stories,” Caleb said, his voice still gentle. “I won’t tell you that they’re not true, but they’re certainly a product of another time—another age. And not all of it’s true. There’s quite a bit of exaggeration in some.”

“And not enough in others,” Jakob observed, pouring another mug of tea, his manner relaxed, casual, but not lacking…something. It wasn’t predatory, nothing like that, but…

A readiness. An alertness. Bryant’s fingers tightened around the enameled metal of his mug, eyes fluttering shut for a few seconds as he tried to find his center, find calm.

Breathe. Just—just breathe.

“But the stories—” he started, then stopped, his heart stumbling over itself. “—the stories always said that you were doomed to keep riding, always hunting. And—and I thought you’d faded from the world. That you were gone.”

“The Hunt never truly goes away,” Miriam said. “Either a gift or a curse, that. With everything in the last couple decades, the rules have gotten more flexible, though, if they ever really were rules at all.”

“Rules, spellcraft, who knows,” Ariel rumbled from where she was still dressing the deer. She held a haunch out toward the fire pit and Bastien heaved himself up, moving over to take it from her and mount it on a spit Bryant hadn’t noticed. “It all got strange when the Otherworlds started cracking open and spilling back into the world. One wonders if the folk who spilled out are trapped here now, or not.”

“Or if those Otherworlds still exist,” Caleb said, his voice almost too quiet to hear. For a second, his gaze flicked toward the barracks, then off toward the rest of the village. “If all we’ve learned over these years is to be believed, they may well not.”

“Well that’s a cheerful thought that I’m not nearly drunk enough to consider,” Miriam said. “Is that the current theory, then?”

“Something that’s been batted about, anyway,” Caleb said, then shook his head. “Not our business until someone makes it our business.”

“And that hasn’t happened yet,” Bastien said, starting to season the haunch. Bryant recognized the salt he sprinkled on it, but nothing else from the tins open on bricks of the fire pit. “And may not be anything we ever quite need to know. The watch continues, the ride eases. Did you hear what Gilad came back to report?”

“Anselm’s already planning on sending out another group,” Jakob said. “See if they can pick anything up.”

Bryant’s gaze bounced between them, his brow furrowing. “I—”

“Probably nothing for you to worry about,” Miriam said, though the troubled look that crossed into her expression suggested that she was reconsidering the words even as they left her mouth. “Just an increase in raiding.”

“That we haven’t seen in more than a few years,” Bastien muttered, glancing at Caleb.

The scarred man sighed and scrubbed a hand over his face. “It could be something—or nothing.” He turned a reassuring smile on Bryant. “Could be bad luck.”

“Yeah,” Bryant said with a faintly furrowed brow. “Guess so. We saw some on the roads on our way here.”

“Is that how your friend got hurt?” Ariel asked. At the silence and the stares of her companions, her brow furrowed and she paused in her butchery. “What? I heard everything from Paul when we were down in the ravines this morning. He was on watch.”

For a second, Bryant’s voice lodged in his throat, the images—the memories—flickering through his head. “No,” he managed. “No, not unless raiders are big, coal-black things with wings and claws and glowing red eyes.”

The group of Huntsmen went silent, exchanging looks. It was Jakob that spoke, his voice quiet. “Camazotzi.”

“Like Thom and Marin’s boy,” Bastien said, his gaze settling on Caleb. “Think Anselm knows?”

“Probably,” Caleb murmured.

Bryant picked up on the subtle shift to their mood and slowly set down his mug. “I—I’m sorry if this comes off as rude, but this clearly means something to all of you that I’m missing.”

Bastien mustered a smile and shook his head. “Not anything for you to worry about yet, lad. Maybe not even anything for us to worry about yet.”

But there was something in all of their expressions—especially Caleb’s, especially Miriam’s—that said something different. It said something had changed and it wasn’t good.

As he reached to pick up his mug again, Bryant decided he wasn’t sure he actually wanted to know.

Rain drummed on the roof and thunder rolled in the distance and David Miller was more than a little glad to be tucked into a soft, warm bed under a sturdy roof, safe from the weather. The sound and the warmth coupled with whatever the healer—his aunt by marriage, no less—had given him should have easily lulled him to sleep. Instead, he drifted, still more awake than asleep, keenly aware of the tension that knotted the frame of the woman who sat on his bed, her knees drawn to her chest and her gaze settled squarely on him.

“You should get some sleep, Issy,” he murmured, opening one eye to watch her. She’d turned the lamps down when the others had ventured out even despite the gathering storm, none of them seeming keen on being cooped up for the duration. They’d made it at least a few hours before curiosity and perhaps a touch of cabin fever got the best of them. Given the lack of clothes hanging everywhere, perhaps some of them had gone to do laundry in addition to exploring the relative safety of their current surroundings.

“I can’t,” she whispered, hugging her knees a little tighter, studying his face in the dim. “If I go to sleep, no one’s keeping an eye on you.”

“I’ll be all right,” he said, opening the other eye. “I’m not going to try to go anywhere, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

“It’s not,” she said, though perhaps the answer came a little too quickly. “Just—go to sleep, David.”

“Did you sleep when we got here?” he asked. “Last night, did you sleep?”

“Not much,” she said. “Not well. I was worried.”

“About me.”

She nodded, resting her chin on her knees. “But it’s not just that. I—all of it still feels like some kind of nightmare. Every time I close my eyes for more than a few seconds, I start seeing it again. I start hearing them and hearing you. Those things—they wanted you dead.”

“But I’m not.” He shifted with a slight wince, making space for her next to him and starting to lift the blankets with an aching arm connected to equally aching ribs. “Issy, please. Just lay down.”

“I don’t want to hurt you,” she whispered, tears sparkling against her lashes. “David.”

“Just lay down,” he said again. “Come on. It’s okay.”

She swallowed hard, shaking her head slowly even as she unfolded, crawling carefully toward the covers he held up for her. “How can you sound so sure?”

“Just am,” he said, letting the blankets fall as she settled beside him, her weight and warmth an added layer of comfort. “Let’s be honest, I’ve had a lot of practice at least sounding like I’m sure about things.”

He felt more than heard her quiet chuckle as she carefully, tentatively nestled herself against his side. His hand found hers beneath the covers, their fingers tangling together.

“I guess you do,” she whispered. “That other boy—”

“Lin,” he said. “Are you about to say we should compare notes?”

“Maybe,” she said. “Once you’re both up to it.”

“Or at least when we’re both stuck in proximity to each other,” David said, resting his cheek against her head as she nestled her head against his neck. “We’ll see what happens. I’m thinking that we’ll have time one way or another.”

“Can we stay here long enough to let you heal?” She asked in a bare whisper. For a second, her fingers were painfully tight around his. “Will there be time for that, too?”

“I don’t know,” he said. “Maybe. There’s a lot of maybe right now.” He stared at the ceiling, watching the shadows flicker and dance with the lamp’s flame. Lightning lit the world beyond the curtains, bright enough to shine through for an instant before it faded. The boom rattled the walls, the windows in their casements. Isabelle nestled closer, the fingers of her free hand cold against his ribs.

“I hope so.” A pause. “I’m glad we’re not out there in that.”

“Me too,” he said. “But there’s going to be a lot—”

“I know,” she said, her voice fading. “We all know, David. But for now, why don’t we…”

She didn’t finish the thought. Her breath was quiet, even. He smiled, his thumb brushing over hers where he held her hand over his stomach.

“Sweet dreams, Issy,” he whispered as he closed his eyes.

Maybe now that she was asleep, now he could rest, too.